The Birthday

Tomorrow, Monday March 30 is my Mom's birthday. Blahhhhh. What am I supposed to do? How do I let her know that I want to celebrate her birthday. How do I send a card to heaven? I think that my Dad, Paul, and Lauren are going out to dinner. I doubt Chris will do much. A and I have talked about making a cake and possibly going out to dinner, or eating in, I am not sure. I don't want it to pass without doing something. It's going to be a hard day, but I know I'll get through it. I would like to write a card to her, but I am not sure what to do with it after. I guess I'll just have to figure it out when the times comes.

She turns 54 tomorrow. Too young to have died. Her birthday is tattooed on my body to celebrate her life, I should remember that. I did not want her death date on me because I wanted to celebrate life. That's what I am going to try to do tomorrow. Celebrate her life.

Here's to having a lot of strength tomorrow.....and getting through the day...

I love you Mom.